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does anyone else really feel like reading bbanghak right now? no? just me? ok. I lost my mind a little bit with this video, been thinking about it for days... only to see this one today and OKAY!!! OKAY!!!!! and also this was really, really cute. milbbanghak being silly, my beloveds... (feat. changmin coming to the rescue)

[ETA: LOOK AT THEM!!!!!!]

you may think well, you've written bbanghak before, you can write what you want to read, right? and the thing is! I can't! I've been hating every single sentence I type, I don't know why! (I know why, I'm in a foul mood...) basically, fuck me.

I can laugh about it too, though - my sunwoo-centric wip? it's a racer au. it's sunmiljuric as racers. so these pics made me chuckle.


this video too. these should've sent me straight into the wip to churn out 10k in one sitting. perfect inspiration, 10/10, thank you, boyz. sorry too because who knows if I'm ever finishing that wip.

I guess it's not even just bbanghak thoughts lately, all the hakric too? BBANGHAKRIC went to a concert together?! what is happening...



sunhak has been really cute too, but I don't trust my judgment on that as an inveterate sunhaker. and I don't think I'm the only one who has been thinking a lot about sangnyu lately :(


it's been a month and I'm still not over this.

lastly, as a bonus, I was going through some old tweets and LOL remember when eric was THE fanservice king? he built the juric ship from the ground up, which is funny considering how shy he is about it now...

I'm so not in the mood to do anything, I spent all my free time this weekend on my phone being picky about what youtube videos I feel like watching... and turns out the answer is not many!

but something I've been thinking about lately is that I love learning/studying korean. from a linguistic point of view, it's such a fun langugae to me. an SOV language where you don't gender everything and you conjugate verbs but also add MORE things to it?! all those suffixes are like catnip to the forever dormant linguistics enthusiast in me. my romance language brain has a field trip whenever I think about it.
( I'm just going on and on about korean here )

sometimes when people go a little awol online, I tend to think they're either doing interesting things offline, like traveling, or just in a different corner of the internet distracted by a new shiny interest/fandom. in my case, it's neither lol I've been just so stressed I haven't been doing much of anything aside from working and like... existing.

even the things I'm doing, I'm not necessarily enjoying. like, this season of yellowjackets? for some reason it's my least favorite season by FAR. I really liked episode 2 (that felt very yellowjackets-y in writing and tone!), but other than that, god, is it my bad mood? am I just not in the right headspace for it? whatever it is, I'm NOT having a good time.

severance s02 has been okay-ish, but I don't know, I think my enjoyment this season has been mostly about watching it with my mom. (I watched s01 alone, then rewatched it with her, now we're watching s02 together.) there are a few plot points that make me roll my eyes a little bit but I guess that's just par for the course if I want to keep watching usamerican shows.

what HAS gone great so far, though, is that I LOVE tbz's new album!!! I wanna make a whole post about it as soon as this headache leaves me alone, so probably later. right now it's all about thinking very little. (future me here to add: I had to save this draft because the headache got way worse LOL definitely not a day to think.)

and I started rereading "his dark materials" as well, which was an excellent idea and the reason I wanted to write this post in the first place.
( his dark materials thoughts )

#8 - a song that makes you want to dance

most kpop songs! I used to dance as a kid/teen and loved it so dearly that the choreographies were what first drew me to kpop. most choreos make me miss dancing.

since I already chose "no air" for a different question:

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I know a lot of tbz choreos by heart lol and "bloom bloom" might be one of my favorites.

honorable mention to the choreos that haunted me for years because I really, really wanted to do them: "man man ha ni", "before the dawn", "mirotic".

#7 - a song that you know all the words to

many such cases! my official answer has to be a chicago song, so:

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funniest song to sing along to. "fred casely? how could he be a burglar, my wife knows him! he sold us our furniture!" "LORD KNOWS HE AIN'T GOT THE SMARTS..."

and I should also add "cell block tango" which I think many people would agree has some of the most memorable lines ever:

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(no, I can't do the russian(?) lines, but that counts! and yeah I listen to the london recording, I don't know why either. it's just the version I downloaded as a teen and have been listening to since...)

some more songs under the cut.
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