just bear with me okay

I need to put thoughts into words and see if I can unscramble my brain enough to be able to write again. ok? ok

(actually before we get to that and because I'm perpetually fascinated about it: I don't have an internal monologue, so when I say I need to put thoughts into words, I mean it literally. maybe that's why I find writing so fun? and so cathartic? I don't know, but every time I come across a new video/post about internal monologues I turn into the bee movie meme of the bee looking up. you know the one. what do you mean people are constantly talking in their heads? how do you get anything done??? woah......)

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