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is this thing on? hello?

november sent me into a bit of a downward spiral, the brain hasn't been braining right, yadda yadda, nothing new under the sun lol that's what I get for trying to handle mental illness with The Power of Love™ instead of medication proper.

now that I'm on a break and all the stress-inducing stuff is more or less out of the way for a couple weeks, I can think a little bit better. I somehow managed to only miss one deadline/date (my gywo check-in... rip), and even got some reading in between?! incredible.

as a deobi I'm ecstatic because I got the best possible news (MY OT11!!!!!!!!!!) and trigger promotions were fun!! at the same time, though, I've been feeling like I'm losing touch with reality because the state of the fandom for the past couple weeks has been... mindboggling? did we all live through the same last 3 years, do we all remember we wanted tbz out of fuckass IST? did I dream that up? is IST employing psyop tactics just to fuck around or is half of the fandom straight up... not catching on that a lot of the people making a fuss are akgaes who got mad bermuda line didn't go solo? hello? can anyone hear me? [knocks on padded walls]

to forget I'm living through a simulation, I have some guesses as to what tbz might be doing in 2025! not actual predictions or wishes, just what I'd expect to happen now that the evil has been defeated they have different contracts with a different company, especially considering what they've been hinting at.
( just deobi things )