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sometimes when people go a little awol online, I tend to think they're either doing interesting things offline, like traveling, or just in a different corner of the internet distracted by a new shiny interest/fandom. in my case, it's neither lol I've been just so stressed I haven't been doing much of anything aside from working and like... existing.
even the things I'm doing, I'm not necessarily enjoying. like, this season of yellowjackets? for some reason it's my least favorite season by FAR. I really liked episode 2 (that felt very yellowjackets-y in writing and tone!), but other than that, god, is it my bad mood? am I just not in the right headspace for it? whatever it is, I'm NOT having a good time.
severance s02 has been okay-ish, but I don't know, I think my enjoyment this season has been mostly about watching it with my mom. (I watched s01 alone, then rewatched it with her, now we're watching s02 together.) there are a few plot points that make me roll my eyes a little bit but I guess that's just par for the course if I want to keep watching usamerican shows.
what HAS gone great so far, though, is that I LOVE tbz's new album!!! I wanna make a whole post about it as soon as this headache leaves me alone, so probably later. right now it's all about thinking very little. (future me here to add: I had to save this draft because the headache got way worse LOL definitely not a day to think.)
and I started rereading "his dark materials" as well, which was an excellent idea and the reason I wanted to write this post in the first place.
I meant to reread the series last year, physically, but then I had to pack up my books etc etc so I read the golden compass/northern lights on my kindle now and loved it a lot. since I first read it as a preteen (my physical copy has the movie cover so I must've read it somewhere around 2007-2008?), I was curious to see if it would hold up - and it did! I can see why I loved this series. I flew through the first book! I had a blast understanding things I barely understood back then and revisiting things I had completely forgotten.
for example: halfway through it I suddenly remembered a character I adore dies, and lost steam for like, two weeks. I didn't want to read that scene again!!! then I got to the end and realized the character doesn't even die in book 1... see, this is why I need to reread my favorites. absolutely no working memory to speak of.
in hindsight and with all due respect to anyone who liked it, the HBO show really fucking sucked, didn't it? I couldn't even finish it, and every time I slogged through another boring ass episode shot entirely in gray tones, I thought to myself "maybe the book sucked, too? maybe I was just an impressionable child. maybe I'd find the book boring now too." BUT I DON'T!!! the show was just everything the book is not. I totally understand the appeal of adaptations and making different versions of a story feel, well, different. but at least make it interesting, then!!! these books were published in the 90s, they could've added nuance and played around with it if they wanted without making it BORING.
(I googled to check when the first season aired and I'm laughing that the show has a 7.8 rating on imdb. I guess people sort of like it boring?)
and look, it's not a perfect book by any means. I tried reading the prequels(?) a few years ago when they came out but hated the ending to the first book so much I never continued the series. this trilogy, though (or at least the first book)? very nostalgic and fun to read. and it's amusing to go back to it now and realize I've been thinking about it one way or another for over 15 years now... many of my online monikers came from this universe. my phones are always named "pantalaimon" in settings; my external drive is "hester"; my desktop computer is "asta" and my laptop was "stelmaria"; my username for online games is a reference to lord asriel, and I used "belacqua" often too. in short, I've just been carrying this universe with me since forever.
I'll pick up the subtle knife after I read sunrise on the reaping, because omg I didn't realize it was coming out so soon! I liked the ballad of songbirds and snakes so I'm expecting to like this one too, we'll see. this is part of my current effort to just keep focused on the things I already know I love; I'm not in a good headspace to go venturing out and finding new things, I wanna cozy up with what's familiar. yes, I am metaphorically creating a blanket cocoon and not peeking my head out for now. all the new shows/books and all the artists I'm not too invested in will have to wait...
last but not least, daemon aus are always somewhere in the back of my mind but it's hard to figure out which daemon to give characters, especially now upon reread, catching all the nuance we miss as kids (and that make me disagree with in-universe rules/implications). HOWEVER! I've always thought chanhee would have a snow leopard like stelmaria and that's still true in my heart. he WOULD have a big cat, okay.
even the things I'm doing, I'm not necessarily enjoying. like, this season of yellowjackets? for some reason it's my least favorite season by FAR. I really liked episode 2 (that felt very yellowjackets-y in writing and tone!), but other than that, god, is it my bad mood? am I just not in the right headspace for it? whatever it is, I'm NOT having a good time.
severance s02 has been okay-ish, but I don't know, I think my enjoyment this season has been mostly about watching it with my mom. (I watched s01 alone, then rewatched it with her, now we're watching s02 together.) there are a few plot points that make me roll my eyes a little bit but I guess that's just par for the course if I want to keep watching usamerican shows.
what HAS gone great so far, though, is that I LOVE tbz's new album!!! I wanna make a whole post about it as soon as this headache leaves me alone, so probably later. right now it's all about thinking very little. (future me here to add: I had to save this draft because the headache got way worse LOL definitely not a day to think.)
and I started rereading "his dark materials" as well, which was an excellent idea and the reason I wanted to write this post in the first place.
I meant to reread the series last year, physically, but then I had to pack up my books etc etc so I read the golden compass/northern lights on my kindle now and loved it a lot. since I first read it as a preteen (my physical copy has the movie cover so I must've read it somewhere around 2007-2008?), I was curious to see if it would hold up - and it did! I can see why I loved this series. I flew through the first book! I had a blast understanding things I barely understood back then and revisiting things I had completely forgotten.
for example: halfway through it I suddenly remembered a character I adore dies, and lost steam for like, two weeks. I didn't want to read that scene again!!! then I got to the end and realized the character doesn't even die in book 1... see, this is why I need to reread my favorites. absolutely no working memory to speak of.
in hindsight and with all due respect to anyone who liked it, the HBO show really fucking sucked, didn't it? I couldn't even finish it, and every time I slogged through another boring ass episode shot entirely in gray tones, I thought to myself "maybe the book sucked, too? maybe I was just an impressionable child. maybe I'd find the book boring now too." BUT I DON'T!!! the show was just everything the book is not. I totally understand the appeal of adaptations and making different versions of a story feel, well, different. but at least make it interesting, then!!! these books were published in the 90s, they could've added nuance and played around with it if they wanted without making it BORING.
(I googled to check when the first season aired and I'm laughing that the show has a 7.8 rating on imdb. I guess people sort of like it boring?)
and look, it's not a perfect book by any means. I tried reading the prequels(?) a few years ago when they came out but hated the ending to the first book so much I never continued the series. this trilogy, though (or at least the first book)? very nostalgic and fun to read. and it's amusing to go back to it now and realize I've been thinking about it one way or another for over 15 years now... many of my online monikers came from this universe. my phones are always named "pantalaimon" in settings; my external drive is "hester"; my desktop computer is "asta" and my laptop was "stelmaria"; my username for online games is a reference to lord asriel, and I used "belacqua" often too. in short, I've just been carrying this universe with me since forever.
I'll pick up the subtle knife after I read sunrise on the reaping, because omg I didn't realize it was coming out so soon! I liked the ballad of songbirds and snakes so I'm expecting to like this one too, we'll see. this is part of my current effort to just keep focused on the things I already know I love; I'm not in a good headspace to go venturing out and finding new things, I wanna cozy up with what's familiar. yes, I am metaphorically creating a blanket cocoon and not peeking my head out for now. all the new shows/books and all the artists I'm not too invested in will have to wait...
last but not least, daemon aus are always somewhere in the back of my mind but it's hard to figure out which daemon to give characters, especially now upon reread, catching all the nuance we miss as kids (and that make me disagree with in-universe rules/implications). HOWEVER! I've always thought chanhee would have a snow leopard like stelmaria and that's still true in my heart. he WOULD have a big cat, okay.