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blog: 2024 in review
(I was writing this before the year ended but didn't finish it in time so let's just pretend I posted in 2024, okay.)
that's a crazy title for this post, because 2024 just started, so how can I possibly- [touches earpiece] sorry, can you repeat that? uh-huh. uh-huh. I see. [takes off sunglasses, brushes face like a tired detective in a procedural] that can't be true... december?
in many ways, this year went better than I expected. in some other ways, it was more about just hanging on than actually accomplishing things. but hey! I'll take it. all things considered, I think I'm walking away with a positive balance.
fic stuff
2024 wordcount on ao3: 74,034
things posted this year: 11 ao3 fics + 3 dreamwith fics
gywo habit tracker: 120 days (from a failed 180 days goal)
approx. # of fics read: 100
➔ I tried to loosely keep track of the fics I was reading in 2024 just to get an idea of how much I read on a good year and coincidentally got to about 100? more than I was expecting, and that's a good thing. YAY reading!!!
➔ I didn't finish any of the wips I had in mind when the year started but somehow came up with a random new collection and 7 fics for fests?! some pwps too. I'm glad fests and smut can inspire me because otherwise I would've written much less this year and that would've bummed me out lol
➔ for no reason I feel like writing chaptered stuff next year... maybe it's the gemini brain seeing all the short oneshots this year and thinking "huh. time to switch it up!"
➔ I think I also tried to have this mindset of just posting things without overthinking too much. "oh this isn't good enough", "oh I could've written this a different way", "oh this isn't the best characterization I've ever done" - fuck it!!! sometimes we gotta just get things done and be a little mediocre, that's how we get to the things that make us really proud. there's joy in the incomplete and imperfect too! make silly nonsensical fic that will make you happy, that's what matters most.
➔ conversely, there's always stuff I don't post, too. either because I think it's too ooc (that's usually pwp), or because I wrote it for myself and don't see anyone else liking it too lol which is also fine, not everything needs to be published and #engaged with. some brainworms are just brainworms.
and I'm doing ficwip's 2024 year in review questions because the brain shut down over a month ago and it hasn't come back up. there are more questions in the link! I picked only the ones I want to answer.
How many fics have you worked on since January?
I posted 14, and probably tinkered with 10~12 wips/half-baked ideas? going by what I see in gdocs.
What’s something new that you tried in a fic this year?
writing a foursome! for some fics I tried to write more concisely too, and in general I tried to avoid some writing tics. why was I so obsessed with "really" for the last 2~3 years?
What piece of media inspired you the most?
critrole for the second half of the year, for sure. iwtv got me really in the mood for some blood but I haven't done much with that aside from finishing an old vampire au I didn't even post, so lol
What ships captured your heart?
YES, I'M STILL JURICING!!! but I think I got more into sunric and nyuric this year, and of course the breakout star in my shipping heart, sangnyu :')
What fic meant the most to you to write?
either the fluffy 24 hours in LA juric, or the scifi au milbbang. I got to write about how much I dislike AI and then tbz gave us trigger MV... thank you, tbz.
What fic made you feel the happiest to work on?
the moonbae/pre-ot5 fic was a delight, I always make myself laugh when I'm writing kevin pov because I feel like this:
What fic was the most satisfying to finish writing?
I'm gonna say the nyuhak because I was not only running against the clock to get it out for hakoween but also had so much fun writing nyuhak? that was a pleasant surprise.
What fic was the most difficult to write?
again the scifi au milbbang, that was out of my comfort zone and I was dealing with a cold too T__T but man I struggled with the hakcob for hakoween, and I had to restart the christmassy milric like three times...
What fic was the easiest to write?
pwps are always the easiest, so the nyuric and the jumilric were easy-peasy. I got the sunhakric and the bbangsang out pretty fast too since they were only meant as small, extra contributions for christmassy, so each took about 2 days.
What were your shortest and longest fics posted this year?
shortest was the soulmates fic (1.2k) I posted to dreamwidth but I didn't write that one this year, only edited/tinkered with it, so I'd also answer with the sunhakric (1.7k). longest was the scifi au milbbang (16k)!
What were your go-to writing songs?
I was always either listening to tbz's recent albums (wrote so much listening to gibberish, WHAT AN ALBUM), a playlist of tbz's the space/atbz covers, my playlist of songs I listened to on repeat this year (basically tbz, viviz, wjsn, oneus, mamamoo, gidle, stayc)... and this playlist called "norse / norwegian / celtic / medieval songs" LOL if no other songs are working, I switch to this playlist and it always does the trick.
What was the hardest fic to title?
none in particular? I had to resort to song lyrics for the nyumilmoonbae and hakcob so maybe those ones.
What's your favorite title of the year?
I like the cheeky/punny ones so particularly fond of "pride & prance", "two for one", "it takes a village", "enough to go around" (they're going around... they're counting up their money... there's enough sunwoo for everyone...!!!).
What's something that surprised you while you were working on a fic? Did it change the story?
milric was harder to write than I expected? I think I just haven't put much thought into them as a couple instead of 2 parts of a throuplewith juyeon. originally I meant for my christmassy entry to be a fluffy friends to lovers where eric would be led to spend christmas eve alone with his crush (who of course also crushes on him. duh) but I was in such a bad mood and trying to figure that out was so hard that I just went established relationship and worked some tiny hurt/comfort into it.
What writing programs did you use? Did you write by hand?
pretty much all gdocs, but sometimes when I want to focus I use focuswriter. I tried using ios' pages too when I was writing on my phone! and yeah, a little bit of longhand when I wasn't at home. I'm fed up with gdocs but the fact that sometimes I write on my phone makes it hard to switch to something else.
How did you recharge between fics?
reading other fics! and watching stuff too.
How many events did you take part in? (bangs, exchanges, ship weeks, zines, prompt memes, they all count!)
3 fic fests: mv fest, hakoween, and 11 days of christmassy.
If this were an awards show, who would you thank?
tbz for the endless inspiration LOL and everyone who either kudoed or commented on my fics, that's something I'm endlessly grateful for. people read my brainworms... and they're so nice about it too... thank you so much, friends and strangers alike!!! every kudo/comment/rec makes me happy. it really does.
What would you like to write next year?
SANGNYU. bbangric. something chaptered, something with sunwoo? I really wanna finally finish the sangmilcob too. I *will* finish it!!!
personal stuff
this was the year I turned 30, which was hilarious for the reaction I got every time I said that to people around me. the two highschool friends I'm in touch with were SHOCKED, since they're both one year younger than me. I'm now an aunt to my friend's babies! every kid around me calls me auntie! strangers politely ask if I'm married! to which I'd always think to myself:
most of all, though, I think I went through 2024 always waiting for something, like the whole year was in suspension. opportunities that didn't pan out in the end, a move to a different place that didn't happen (my books are still in boxes lol), a tour that I was planning to attend and didn't have the chance to (thanks for nothing, IST)... I failed at all of my very modest, super relaxed goals, too.
and yet! 2024 was okay? not the worst it could've been, for sure. the serotonin I got from fandom was great and my saving grace, and maybe I was just expecting such a bad year that in comparison, it wasn't really that bad. it was okay! mediocre for personal life reasons, EXCELLENT for fandom life reasons, just okay for everything in between.
films and stuff
ok, I listened to a lot of tbz, but what else was I listening to?
- "babyface" by wjsn. it never left my loop playlist all year long. I don't know why. I'm actually gonna listen to it again right now.
- yuqi, solar, moonbyul, stayc all released albums I loved this year.
- shoutout also to gidle's "wife" for successfully pulling off the "this is so short I need to play it 3 times at least" trick on me, I listened to that song a LOT.
- loved oneus' "now" before they were sent to the endless hell of survival shows again, was surprisingly (and happily) into taemin's releases this year, and adored ace's "my girl" MV.
and ok, yeah, I was really into iwtv/critrole this year, but what else did I like to watch?
- I've been trying to watch more kdramas and that's slow going like everything else I do but I really enjoyed "catch the ghost" (tvN).
- my favorite movie I watched this year was by far "polite society" (2023), I need this movie to win all the oscars retroactively!!!!!!!
- considering I've been really fed up with hollywood as of late, I'm trying to watch more asian cinema than usual. shoutout to "badhaai do" (2022) and "maja ma" (2022) for having beautiful photography and editing and also for making me cry.
- I had fun watching but it didn't rock my world: "abbott elementary" (ABC), "poker face" (peacock), "minx" (max/starz), "sweetpea" (sky atlantic), "hacks" (max).
that's a crazy title for this post, because 2024 just started, so how can I possibly- [touches earpiece] sorry, can you repeat that? uh-huh. uh-huh. I see. [takes off sunglasses, brushes face like a tired detective in a procedural] that can't be true... december?
in many ways, this year went better than I expected. in some other ways, it was more about just hanging on than actually accomplishing things. but hey! I'll take it. all things considered, I think I'm walking away with a positive balance.
fic stuff
2024 wordcount on ao3: 74,034
things posted this year: 11 ao3 fics + 3 dreamwith fics
gywo habit tracker: 120 days (from a failed 180 days goal)
approx. # of fics read: 100
➔ I tried to loosely keep track of the fics I was reading in 2024 just to get an idea of how much I read on a good year and coincidentally got to about 100? more than I was expecting, and that's a good thing. YAY reading!!!
➔ I didn't finish any of the wips I had in mind when the year started but somehow came up with a random new collection and 7 fics for fests?! some pwps too. I'm glad fests and smut can inspire me because otherwise I would've written much less this year and that would've bummed me out lol
➔ for no reason I feel like writing chaptered stuff next year... maybe it's the gemini brain seeing all the short oneshots this year and thinking "huh. time to switch it up!"
➔ I think I also tried to have this mindset of just posting things without overthinking too much. "oh this isn't good enough", "oh I could've written this a different way", "oh this isn't the best characterization I've ever done" - fuck it!!! sometimes we gotta just get things done and be a little mediocre, that's how we get to the things that make us really proud. there's joy in the incomplete and imperfect too! make silly nonsensical fic that will make you happy, that's what matters most.
➔ conversely, there's always stuff I don't post, too. either because I think it's too ooc (that's usually pwp), or because I wrote it for myself and don't see anyone else liking it too lol which is also fine, not everything needs to be published and #engaged with. some brainworms are just brainworms.
and I'm doing ficwip's 2024 year in review questions because the brain shut down over a month ago and it hasn't come back up. there are more questions in the link! I picked only the ones I want to answer.
How many fics have you worked on since January?
I posted 14, and probably tinkered with 10~12 wips/half-baked ideas? going by what I see in gdocs.
What’s something new that you tried in a fic this year?
writing a foursome! for some fics I tried to write more concisely too, and in general I tried to avoid some writing tics. why was I so obsessed with "really" for the last 2~3 years?
What piece of media inspired you the most?
critrole for the second half of the year, for sure. iwtv got me really in the mood for some blood but I haven't done much with that aside from finishing an old vampire au I didn't even post, so lol
What ships captured your heart?
YES, I'M STILL JURICING!!! but I think I got more into sunric and nyuric this year, and of course the breakout star in my shipping heart, sangnyu :')
What fic meant the most to you to write?
either the fluffy 24 hours in LA juric, or the scifi au milbbang. I got to write about how much I dislike AI and then tbz gave us trigger MV... thank you, tbz.
What fic made you feel the happiest to work on?
the moonbae/pre-ot5 fic was a delight, I always make myself laugh when I'm writing kevin pov because I feel like this:
What fic was the most satisfying to finish writing?
I'm gonna say the nyuhak because I was not only running against the clock to get it out for hakoween but also had so much fun writing nyuhak? that was a pleasant surprise.
What fic was the most difficult to write?
again the scifi au milbbang, that was out of my comfort zone and I was dealing with a cold too T__T but man I struggled with the hakcob for hakoween, and I had to restart the christmassy milric like three times...
What fic was the easiest to write?
pwps are always the easiest, so the nyuric and the jumilric were easy-peasy. I got the sunhakric and the bbangsang out pretty fast too since they were only meant as small, extra contributions for christmassy, so each took about 2 days.
What were your shortest and longest fics posted this year?
shortest was the soulmates fic (1.2k) I posted to dreamwidth but I didn't write that one this year, only edited/tinkered with it, so I'd also answer with the sunhakric (1.7k). longest was the scifi au milbbang (16k)!
What were your go-to writing songs?
I was always either listening to tbz's recent albums (wrote so much listening to gibberish, WHAT AN ALBUM), a playlist of tbz's the space/atbz covers, my playlist of songs I listened to on repeat this year (basically tbz, viviz, wjsn, oneus, mamamoo, gidle, stayc)... and this playlist called "norse / norwegian / celtic / medieval songs" LOL if no other songs are working, I switch to this playlist and it always does the trick.
What was the hardest fic to title?
none in particular? I had to resort to song lyrics for the nyumilmoonbae and hakcob so maybe those ones.
What's your favorite title of the year?
I like the cheeky/punny ones so particularly fond of "pride & prance", "two for one", "it takes a village", "enough to go around" (they're going around... they're counting up their money... there's enough sunwoo for everyone...!!!).
What's something that surprised you while you were working on a fic? Did it change the story?
milric was harder to write than I expected? I think I just haven't put much thought into them as a couple instead of 2 parts of a throuple
What writing programs did you use? Did you write by hand?
pretty much all gdocs, but sometimes when I want to focus I use focuswriter. I tried using ios' pages too when I was writing on my phone! and yeah, a little bit of longhand when I wasn't at home. I'm fed up with gdocs but the fact that sometimes I write on my phone makes it hard to switch to something else.
How did you recharge between fics?
reading other fics! and watching stuff too.
How many events did you take part in? (bangs, exchanges, ship weeks, zines, prompt memes, they all count!)
3 fic fests: mv fest, hakoween, and 11 days of christmassy.
If this were an awards show, who would you thank?
tbz for the endless inspiration LOL and everyone who either kudoed or commented on my fics, that's something I'm endlessly grateful for. people read my brainworms... and they're so nice about it too... thank you so much, friends and strangers alike!!! every kudo/comment/rec makes me happy. it really does.
What would you like to write next year?
SANGNYU. bbangric. something chaptered, something with sunwoo? I really wanna finally finish the sangmilcob too. I *will* finish it!!!
personal stuff
this was the year I turned 30, which was hilarious for the reaction I got every time I said that to people around me. the two highschool friends I'm in touch with were SHOCKED, since they're both one year younger than me. I'm now an aunt to my friend's babies! every kid around me calls me auntie! strangers politely ask if I'm married! to which I'd always think to myself:
most of all, though, I think I went through 2024 always waiting for something, like the whole year was in suspension. opportunities that didn't pan out in the end, a move to a different place that didn't happen (my books are still in boxes lol), a tour that I was planning to attend and didn't have the chance to (thanks for nothing, IST)... I failed at all of my very modest, super relaxed goals, too.
and yet! 2024 was okay? not the worst it could've been, for sure. the serotonin I got from fandom was great and my saving grace, and maybe I was just expecting such a bad year that in comparison, it wasn't really that bad. it was okay! mediocre for personal life reasons, EXCELLENT for fandom life reasons, just okay for everything in between.
films and stuff
ok, I listened to a lot of tbz, but what else was I listening to?
- "babyface" by wjsn. it never left my loop playlist all year long. I don't know why. I'm actually gonna listen to it again right now.
- yuqi, solar, moonbyul, stayc all released albums I loved this year.
- shoutout also to gidle's "wife" for successfully pulling off the "this is so short I need to play it 3 times at least" trick on me, I listened to that song a LOT.
- loved oneus' "now" before they were sent to the endless hell of survival shows again, was surprisingly (and happily) into taemin's releases this year, and adored ace's "my girl" MV.
and ok, yeah, I was really into iwtv/critrole this year, but what else did I like to watch?
- I've been trying to watch more kdramas and that's slow going like everything else I do but I really enjoyed "catch the ghost" (tvN).
- my favorite movie I watched this year was by far "polite society" (2023), I need this movie to win all the oscars retroactively!!!!!!!
- considering I've been really fed up with hollywood as of late, I'm trying to watch more asian cinema than usual. shoutout to "badhaai do" (2022) and "maja ma" (2022) for having beautiful photography and editing and also for making me cry.
- I had fun watching but it didn't rock my world: "abbott elementary" (ABC), "poker face" (peacock), "minx" (max/starz), "sweetpea" (sky atlantic), "hacks" (max).